In 4 days I leave my baby for the first time. I’m headed to NYC for a conference, which I am extremely excited about….but I am also getting a little uneasy.
Miss E. will be 6 months on Saturday. I won’t be here to take her monthly picture. I won’t be here to give her a hug and kiss.
Yes, I’ll be home the very next day. Yes, it’ll be good for me, my businses and my general demeanor to have some time away … just for ME.
But I am already a little bit sad.
I can be gone an afternoon or an evening. But 8 hours has been about it….then i want to see her, hold her, smell her, feel her soft skin and look at her tiny little toes.
We’re still nursing so a part of me is nervous after 4 straight days of bottles…she won’t want to go back. But I’m sure she will…and if not, I’ll just have to work a ltitle harder.
It’s going to be a good trip. And Miss E. will be fine. She’ll be home with daddy and her big brother.
On Sunday, I’ll be home.
And I’ll inhale her, smother her with kisses and marvel at how much she’s changed.
This is part of All Things Fadra’s 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
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The first time I was away from my oldest for a weekend, it took longer than I thought it would to relax and be okay with being by myself. It’s always worth it though. It’s just funny that we can rationally know they will be fine and still be so emotionally conflicted about it.
I can’t even remember being away from Evan overnight as a baby. I would be totally nervous too. But isn’t it awesome that you have a husband you can rely on 100% to smother them with love while you’re gone? Isn’t is great being a mom? I miss my son when he simply goes to sleep for the night (even though I need a break). I think it’s called Mommy Brain 🙂
I am INCREDIBLY lucky to have the husband that I do. He is totally wonderful.
I remember those days. I am debating leaving my ten-year-old and fourteen-year-old for ten days. They can easily survive without me. They will barely notice my absence, but OH! I lament it, I worry and I come back a better Me. Little Miss E is blessed to have parents like you two!
Just bouncing in from SOCSunday….