Nursing for nine months is good right? I mean, I’ve only been nursing in the mornings for about two months now but that’s ok. Some breastmilk is better than no breastmilk.
Can you tell I’m struggling with this?
For the past few days, the bug has pretty much denied my boob. So I said, okay, we’re done and that’s ok. Last night after two full days of no release, I went on a rampage throughout my house looking for my pump. To no avail. I have no idea what brilliant spot I picked to store it last week. It obviously was a great location as even now, I have no clue where it is. I was reduced to hand pumping into the bathroom sink. Glad the hubby is out of town….not thinking he would have found that to be sexy.
But the mom guilt hit me full force today! Is this a bad thing I’m doing? Is the bug being deprived of a few more months of mommy gold? I could pump at least once a day for a few more months. )@(#$@#)(*$ Why can’t I just let this go?
Honestly, because as much as it could be a pain and sometimes a minor inconvenience, I am going to miss it. There is no other time that I get my little man all to myself in a quiet, secluded, snuggly way. He’s getting big. Tomorrow we go to his 9 month well visit. 9 MONTHS!!! Where does the time go?
Ok mama, take a deep breath and just let it go. Just let it go.