A friend of mine is due any day now with her first baby. I’m so excited for her and really and truly, I’m envious. Remembering back on my first few hours, days, weeks with the Bug makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside (and extremely tired too!). He’s my baby, my firstborn. That nostalgic feeling creeps up through my core and makes me think…I want another baby.
Then I hold someone’s one month old, five month old, even nine month old and I ache for that itty bitty thing that will just let you hold them, nuzzle them, love on them. These days, I’m lucky if bedtime stories allow me a few extra kisses on the forehead. The Bug is truly becoming a little boy and not a baby.
So do we do this again? Do we have another baby?
My sister actually wrote in my Mother’s Day card – “When are you going to give me another niece or nephew?” and while initially I wanted to throw something large and heavy at her for asking, it got me thinking.
On the one hand, I know I want to add to my family, provide the Bug with a sibling, spread my love to another child. On the other hand, the idea of it scares me to death. I’m comfortable. We have a little routine going. I’m finally starting to be able to (sort of) communicate with my son and know (half the time) what he wants/needs etc. A new baby means STARTING OVER and that freaks me out. Plus, I bitch about not having enough time now. What the heck do I think is going to happen with TWO kids?
I know with every bit of my being eventually we’ll have another child. But when is the right time? (Ok naysayers, hush yourself, I know there is NO right time to have a baby, but I’m looking for suggestions here.) What’s a good spacing? My sister and I are 3.5 years apart and that seems good to me but that’s all I know. Do I wait until the Bug is out of diapers? (Lord knows how long that will take.) Or do you just go for it and say, it’ll happen?
I don’t want to wait too long as it took us a LONG time to have the Bug and I don’t know what kind of journey I’m looking at the second time around. Two years age difference doesn’t seem like it’s enough, but what do I know?
What do you guys think?