What could have been

I try not to play this game too often.  I don’t live my life by “what if’s”, but every now and again, you are placed in a space where you can’t help it.

Last week, my very first place of employment was having an open house.  They just moved to a newly designed office space and I was anxious to check it out.  My former CEO does nothing small and has always gone out of his way to ensure his employees have the very best work space possible.

I was not disappointed.

It was, for lack of a better word, AMAZING.  Clean lines mixed with collaborative work spaces equals a haven for marketing brainstorming and creative thinking.  I left feeling a little bit in awe

Is it wrong to consider checking out all future work spaces before I go back to work full time in a couple years? (Probably.)

Then I did that thing.  

I wondered what my life, career, etc would be like if I had never left.

It was silly really because I left for many reasons.  And my life wouldn’t be where it is today had I not left. Who know’s if I would have even thought to start this blog?

But I did it anyway.  I looked at my two colleagues who are still there, both Vice Presidents, and wondered.

I wondered if I had that in me.

I wondered if I was going to be able to get back into the marketing field once Miss E goes to kindergarten.

I wondered if I wanted to.

I wondered if people would hire me.

I wondered if I was marketable.


I still wonder…

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  1. says

    I can totally relate. I ended up SAHM unexpectedly and loved it. Really, why not enjoy and take advantage – this time is short and goes so fast. During the years off, I too wondered how I would get back into the game and if anyone would want to hire me. I spent several months over a year and a half ago searching & applying for jobs with only one phone interview before I took a temporary part time job. Certainly not my dream, but something to help bring in a little income and help our family move forward with our dreams. My return to fulltime work came suddenly last fall when a former colleague contacted me and within two weeks offered me a job. It was, and has been, both exciting and scary. Exciting to get the opportunity so easily to jump back in but scary in how fast our lives shifted plus me trying to learn a slightly different aspect of the industry I was in as well as new software. There are days where I wonder about the other possibility – if I had continued to stay at home. That’s when I remind myself, the grass is always greener. I think you always question. My two cents – enjoy every moment! It will all work out down the road when it’s meant to. :)

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